I don't think so?

It's more of a slight panic whenever something reminds me about it. But nowhere near a panic attack. Closer to the reaction when you remember the most embarrassing thing you've ever done

I totally agree and take full accountability for what I did. I know I could have done a lot more to stop him.

I never thought about him this way before, even during I was like what?? But I also think when you see students every day, it's a whole different thing. I haven't seen him in 8 months, and I unfortunately didn't really think about him as a student anymore

Oh I know I'm an idiot.

He never did anything before this that I can classify as too far. I think the only contact was maybe the last school day when they all gave me a hug?

But I did see him outside of work, but just in passing if I was hanging out with his mother. And I would never had said yes if it was his suggestion, but I trusted the mom, and kinda assumed I was hanging out with something similar to a little brother

I might be wrong here. We use kg and I just assumed. Maybe he's closer to 190? Idk. I'm around 130 lbs, and compared to me, and him being 17, I think he's huge

As a maths and science teacher, in a language that is not English, I'm taking these comments as a compliment.

I spent a long time writing it, as I didn't want people to attack me, but also understand that I actually know I fucked up and I'm remorseful.

Where the main person is the student? Because this is a nightmare for me.

I will not lose my job, but I'll probably get pushed out of it, if it gets out. Small community, and everyone knows everyone's business

I'll take that as a compliment?

I don't teach language classes, and I assumed my spelling or syntax is not even close to being part of a creative writing class.

And if it sounds like fantasy, maybe I can lie my ass off if someone confronts me