I was listening to Having A Blast by Green Day earlier today and it had those self destructive vibes while being an upbeat song

I'm losin' all my happiness

The happiness you pinned on me

My loneliness still comforts me

My anger dwells inside of me

I'm taking it all out on you

And all the shit you put me through

Well, no one here is getting out alive

This time, I've really lost my mind, and I don't care

So close your eyes and kiss yourself goodbye

And think about the times we've spent and what they've meant

To me, it's nothin'

I try, but people keep waking me up and telling me it's time to go to work.

"If you choose not to decide then you still have made a choice."