Hey stranger, I am really sorry to hear this. You need to let yourself feel the feelings and grieve. Think of the good times you had with your dog. The great life you gave him. We never have enough time with them and it isn't fair and it is ok to take care of yourself.

I understand what you are going through on many levels. Feel free to reach out.

My mom used to call during an assuredly busy time, and leave long, winding voice-mails that gave me tons of anxiety. I was always frustrated that she wouldn't just text me. She died unexpectedly on January 5. I wish I saved one of those frustrating voicemails...