It seems to me that your main fuck up is threatening a relationship you are seemingly enjoying, based solely on the fact that he doesn't really agree with marriage.

If there are other things wrong then fair enough, but it seems like self sabotage on your part.

Multiple, in fact.

A plethora of pussy, you could say.

A couple months ago, I was out of commission (if you get my drift), and boyf was a bit frisky so he jumped in the shower with me. I went to grab something and he jumped at the chance ....

I jumped a mile and told him I had a tampon in.

The next ten minutes was us both laughing our arses off while he was digging around trying to grab the tampon he'd entirely squashed against my insides.

It was hilarious and so embarrassing!

Yep it's to help with aches and pains.

Just happens that I have a very specific and reoccurring ache.