Yeah I enjoyed the book enough until the "twist". If it was a movie and I wasn't actually reading her internal dialogue I can get behind it. Like the only way it could make sense is if she was keeping it a secret from herself as well. Idk hadn't thought about this book in a while and I'll go back to doing that I guess

Yeah I had that thought while typing this up. That there were probably hints but I have no desire to read it again.