OminOus_PancakeS

OminOus_PancakeS t1_j9rf8la wrote

Reply to [Image] Do not judge by Nirbhik

Spinoza is one of the few dead philosophers I have time for. He gets a good deal more profound (and practical) than this quote might suggest.

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OminOus_PancakeS t1_iuhz48t wrote

Reply to comment by karagiselle in Someone still remembers you as an asshole for something you probably don't even remember doing. by lucius789

I've theorised that because I am very sensitive to what other people appear to think of me, I've tended to remember in particular those occasions that most relate to that concern, both positive and negative. For instance, the nursery memory is my earliest memory of making people laugh, which is a positive (ooh, people like me!).

Your description of constantly replaying the unhappy memories though - that sounds rough. Reminds me of compulsive rumination which can be associated with OCD.

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OminOus_PancakeS t1_iuhv7mo wrote

Reply to Someone still remembers you as an asshole for something you probably don't even remember doing. by lucius789

I certainly don't have a photographic memory and it typically takes me much longer to learn something than the average person (unless it directly relates to one of my obscure interests).

But for some reason, I can recall a lot of social interactions. Friends, especially old friends, are often surprised when I remind them of shared experiences they'd forgotten. I'm in my forties now and I can even remember a conversation I had during a walk home from nursery (so I would have been 4 or less).

This means I can also remember a lot of occasions throughout my life - primary school, secondary school, university, various jobs - when I was an asshole to someone. As uncomfortable as it is, I'm glad of this because it gives me a little more self-knowledge and there's a higher chance of reacting differently in the future.

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