I'm so sorry you and your mom went through that. Religion can really bring out the ugliness in people

I feel ya. I waited over 10 years to read it. Didn't make it at all easier. Saddest part for me was remembering how much he loved life, like more than most people. He wanted to live so badly, but just couldn't. Sending you a ghost hug rn

A big part of it is religion, which in my opinion, is just a tool some people use to shield themselves from the fact that life inevitably ends for us all. My friend was 100% convinced that there is no God, no afterlife, no nothing. So it was incredibly infuriating to him when people insisted he go on living for their religious morality. It's just so vile that society's religious delusion can impact the lives of others in such ways.

My friend wrote a book called Two Arms and a Head. It was his real life story about how he became a paraplegic after a motorcycle crash. In the book he rages about the stigma of wanting to die. People didn't want to hear it, so they would just gaslight him and pretend nothing was wrong. He suffered so much and in the end he killed himself. He died all alone in secret. Would've been much better to be able to say goodbye and send him out with a bang, but no. People who are too scared to face mortality force it on the rest of us. It's so sickening. Probably one of the cruelest things you can do to someone is forcd them to live when they're suffering a nightmare reality they can't escape. I hate people sometimes.