Ok so what’s your actual plan because it sounds like you just want sympathy without effort, like you want us to tell you you’re a good person for “taking responsibility” (anonymously online). So what are you actually going to do. Why should I not see you as a predator who will hurt people again

Holy shit dude this isn’t a tale of two hearts drifting your sexually assaulted her and are blaming it on alcohol. Never drink again, take all the consequences that come with you’re predatory actions and see a counselor if you really care