Honestly, not really. I definitely dodged a bullet there. But it’s still ingrained into my self-worth and the fact that I got rejected means that I’ve essentially wasted my time and I’m at square one again, hence the moping.

However, I’m still interested in exploring healthcare because I like seeing how neuroscience (my major) can be used in benefitting people. I’m also drawn towards the idea of interacting with different people on a daily basis and the dynamic work environment healthcare may bring. But I’m still cautious in pursuing a career in it because I’ve heard of the negatives as well (insurance bs, burnout, stress, etc) so I do want space to explore it first.

As for my parents, I’m incredibly grateful in the help they gave for applications and getting me my current job and living at home, etc. But it also highlights to me how I never had the courage/motivated to really step up and make my own choices. I’m also incredibly bad at really articulating what I want to my parents. Every time we have this discussion I mumble and stammer. It doesn’t help that my dad is an really intense and impatient individual and my mom just frets and frets. And when I do say something, their counter arguments are too good and I start getting persuaded.

Yeah…… I probably really need to go and just live my life first.