No, e-sports are much more intense. Pros play every single day for 8-16 hours. Idk about chess, but in competitive games, they don't fake anything. Everybody wants to win and to win they have to train that much. Before, their habits were very unhealthy. They don't eat healthy and they barely sleep. They obviously never exercised. But now they're getting some maintenance. They're required to exercise but afaik the meals and sleep schedule are still their own to maintain, which is obviously still very unhealthy.

As well, carpal tunnel and other hand and arm problems are very common. And these are reported conditions. Some most likely have hemorrhoids from sitting that long on the chair every single day(and eating unhealthy).

Finding out there are truly wonderful people out there in the world and that there are all kinds. I'm talking about Hololive. Just about everybody you see there are wonderful people; even the CEO. And that's saying something.

Was that a "little" thing? No, but it is something that keeps me going.

I wish I was an easy person to please or more like a person people can be comfortable around and have a good time. Hololive has been teaching me these things, so I'm learning to be a better person. I also have a very selfish side that I have to co-exist with to live a fulfilling life, so that's where I'm struggling. The conflict between the 2 and finding the middle ground, then building the foundation.

After that wall of text, I've figured some small things that keep me going... My cup of milk tea in the morning, a long shower... Funny and cute content (anime girls and cats).

From what you and other people are saying, I think the simpler the "what keeps you going" the happier you are likely to be as a person.

While I have a long list of things. If it takes so much to keep me going, can I truly be happy? Needing too many things to keep going is high maintenance. High maintenance makes me fall apart.

The only good thing to take away from my comment is that there are truly many things in this world that can make one happy or keep them going. I've got to work hard... Gotta keep going.

Thank you for your comment. Believe it or not, I make this comment not just for the one I'm replying to, but also myself and everyone who happens to see it. After all, this is a public board. What you told me is exactly how I see it too. And as to why it's for myself too, it's because I need to constantly remind myself of my past, my convictions, and apply them to my actions. I already understand everything that's positive about life for me, but I'm still fighting myself. I am a slave to my anger, to say the least. One's greatest enemy is themself.

Something similar is "fake it 'till you make it", and although that one doesn't really try to understand the positives, it gets one to take the first step and next steps without thinking about it. Maybe afterwards, they have a better idea.

Edit: PS you're a wonderful person

Try it before you knock it. Life isn't what you make it out to be. For better or for worse, I've been surprised by different reactions and different results when I do something different from my own perspective.

The point is to take the first step in being a more positive person. Being positive can have positive effects on people. The next problem is keeping it.