So you've cheated on him twice and he's still talking to you? All I've heard is whining. You never did anything to remedy the first betrayal and then you went and did it again? I'm sorry but you'll have a hard time getting any sympathy from this post. Please move on and spare him your self centered actions. Betrayal is the worst act one can can do in a relationship and you did it twice. Don't believe you're remorseful at all and your actions have yielded the consequences. You have to work on your viewpoint of relationship responsibilities and accountability. Not trying to pile on but these are the truths and wish you the best.