A few disorganized thoughts after reading your post...

1. I don't think ship captain is the right path for you
2. I think you'd make a great therapist
3. I think you should consider pursuing writing as well. The bit above is a bit of a brain dump so it's hard to say for sure, but my gut tells me you have a lot to say and if you can find a way to refine it, it would be really interesting to read

You've got your life ahead of you, and you're asking the right questions. If I were a betting man, I'd bet on you doing something amazing with your life.

Everybody knows Al Gore invented the internet. Why else would it use so many al gore rhythms?

Mr Backpedaling Cooperator

Mr Boot Chucker