OP is in a toxic family and still is morally too conflicted to even stand up for themselves. Fucking grow a spine. The world is cold and unfair. This is only the beginning. My mom has been too kind-hearted throughout all her life and she's been taken advantage of and regrets so many life decisions she made out of consideration for others, and yet got left in the dust or worse, backstabbed at every turn. You will turn out the same OP.