Submitted by ConfusedJuicebox t3_zjngls in tifu
I (20F) have a guy friend (20M) where we both are affectionate with one another, but nothing more than just like hugging and cuddling really. It’s kind of a weird situation, but I honestly like it.
Last night, I was having some fun with my friends (I’m a college kid), drank and took edibles. I’m an intense lightweight so I somehow got really messed up after just 3mg and 2 seltzers.
My guy friend and I like to hangout late at night. We watch TV together, do crossword puzzles, just sit together, etc. We just stay up late and enjoy our time together.
Last night, after I was with my friends, I invited him over. I didn’t think I was super crossed. I thought I was just vibing….nope. I ended up laying on his lap, which is nothing out of the ordinary, but I was like freaking out and not thinking right.
I had my hand under my head as I was laying on his lap, and he was on my laptop. I should’ve pieced it together but not thinking clearly, I was like “oh am I crushing your hand” because for some reason I thought his hand was under my hand. He said no and that’s when it should’ve clicked in my brain. However two seconds later I proceeded to say “isn’t this your hand” as I grabbed his dick. We both just turned and looked at each other and he like laughed a bit. I freaked out for like 30 mins after that, and he continued to convince me that it was fine and no big deal.
However, I am still extremely mortified. Like he said he doesn’t care at all and it’s fine, yet thinking about it makes me feel sick. I literally cannot speak to him or look at without feeling so gross and ill.
Edit: I am NOT disgusted by him or his dick in any way. I understand I made it seem like that with my choice of words. However, what I meant is that I just feel that way due to the embarrassment. I’ve had a lot on my plate recently, such as getting out of an abusive relationship, so I’ve been super stressed about things and I tend to overthink things. He did nothing wrong. I just react this way with embarrassment sometimes, but I’m working on it.
Edit 2: I told him I liked him a few weeks ago, he said he was attracted to me. However, he said he couldn’t offer me anything more than a friendship. He said he wasn’t ready to be in a relationship. I agreed that I am not ready to be in one either.
Update: This is a very unexpected update, but I discovered that he has a girlfriend that he never me about. He was cheating on her with me for several months. We are no longer friends.
TL;DR I was crossed and laying on my friends lap. I thought his dick was his hand and accidentally grabbed it.