Sorry for what you are going through. I wish you a merry Xmas. My gift to you is this article, if you take the time to read it, you might want to introduce some change to your lifestyle.

https://www.oldcolonyhospice.org/blog/bid/101702/nurse-reveals-the-top-five-regrets-people-make-on-their-deathbed#:~:text=1.,many%20dreams%20have%20gone%20unfulfilled.

This article is a qualitative research from a nurse who asked people on their deathbed, what they regretted most in life. #2 was "I wish I didn’t work so hard. This came from every male patient that I nursed. They missed their children’s youth and their partner’s"