I know this is so hard and you're struggling right now.. but you are doing such a good job protecting yourself and protecting your children. You're getting her the mental health support that she needs. You're a good mom. You're doing a good job. I'm very proud of you. When you get older and you look back you'll realize how much you had to overcome to ensure your children were protected and had their needs met and how much you had to sacrifice.

For right now, keep your head up. Get whatever help you can source to take care of your family. Take care of your own mental health... You were groomed and abused and that leaves mental scars. It's going to get better. It takes time and work, but these things can definitely get so much better than where you are now.