Sorry OP but people like you are exactly the reason I have trust issues.

Can't trust anybody these days and that's the truth. Itd be so amazing if I had people in my life I could actually trust but I forever have these walls up because shit like this happens to people all the time.

Hope whatever's meant to be happens and may it be for the best but I'm NGL you just possibly scarred your partner for the rest of their existence. Things like this cause deep fissures in people's psyche and they will forever expect or be waiting for you or whoever comes next to go do some fuck shit again