Visual_Mission_1459 OP t1_j26u5w4 wrote on December 30, 2022 at 1:55 AM

Reply to comment by AcrobaticSource3 in TIFU by trying to hook up with my childhood bestfriend by Visual_Mission_1459

i cant. i always do reckless things and just realized it. was in the hospital for an attempt a few weeks ago and then got asked for nudes and then i drank fucking smirnoff and took valium with friends and ive been going up and down up and down like depressed happy and whatever. im just really unstable and idk what to do atp. im too scared to stop ive gotten too far deep and i find drugs and alcohol fun anyways. also scared to snitch bc as i mentioned in a previous comment my friends know gang members and im afraid of what will happen if i say anything

Yourdepression t1_j26xoyp wrote on December 30, 2022 at 2:20 AM

You can you just chose not to

Visual_Mission_1459 OP t1_j26z3ym wrote on December 30, 2022 at 2:31 AM

i dont think you realize how addiction and mental health issues work.

Yourdepression t1_j26zmfy wrote on December 30, 2022 at 2:34 AM

I’ve dealt with depression for the past 11 years of my life

Visual_Mission_1459 OP t1_j2704up wrote on December 30, 2022 at 2:38 AM

yeah but its different for me. i cant just not selfharm or quit drugs and shi its hard aff. trust me i flushed over a hundred pills down the toilet once bc i promised myself i'd get clean but i just couldnt do it so i relapsed once i found more pills. im gonna smoke a gram of weed soon anywayss

-Chris-V- t1_j27eir8 wrote on December 30, 2022 at 4:29 AM

Then get yourself into inpatient treatment/rehab. You probably ruined your friendship with that guy. He will not see you the same way again. Get your priorities straight.