We were not making out, we were just laying in bed and I think snuggling although I honestly don't remember it that well. I am entirely unsure why she said that it would be ok for me to touch her breasts, we were pretty close to each other and at least emotionally pretty intimate with each other, to the point where it would maybe even look like something was going on between us if other people were to read our chats and/or listen to our phone calls. That has been to varying degrees over the months however and she did show romantic interest in other people a few times, during which we were way less intimate with each other. So it's somewhat unclear how exactly she felt about me but as far as I know she just thought of me as a close friend, maybe an inbetween of that and a romantic interest but that is not something I know for sure. She had also told me beforehand that when I was to visit her I could use her lap or her breasts as pillow if I wanted to so it might be that she just didn't mind with people she is close to being intimate with her to that exact point and that she wouldn't have thought anything of it. My guess would probably be that it was a mixture of genuine comfortableness with that in particular and also panic response/coping at the same time but again, this is just pure assumption.