You were in a relationship and went on bumble?

I'm...honestly not sure what you expected.

Lol

You both absolutely didn't communicate anything. It feels like you are both teenagers

What an elaborate way to say you were cheating on him.

You definitely deserved that one. You went on dates WHILE IN A RELATIONSHIP and yet you still expected him to be head over heels obsessed with you. Wow.

As a straight lady, I adore the guys- but to be perfectly honest when it comes to relationships and making a move they tend to either be waaay aggressive or waaay shy. Few in my personal experience ever get it "right" or "perfect" regarding timing. You may just need to actually TELL this guy how you feel.

Communication is super important to any relationship and it sounds like you guys have done very little, on this subject, each waiting for the other to make a move.

Sometimes what we think we want is not what we need at the time. You might never have felt that connection. Don't pine over something you never had and only hoped for.

why did you go out with other guys?

On 6 dates, no less...

OP, you don't deserve this guy.

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> I didn’t know whether I should stay and put in more effort or if it should just be over

More effort? You went on a date with 6 different guys you've met on Bumble instead of trying to communicate with him. The only effort you made is make him feel that eventually you'll leave so he shouldn't get used to the relationship, and surprise, he didn't. You need to talk to him and clear things up, he can't read your mind. Communication is the most important thing on relationships, and you both need to work together to improve in that aspect.

Surprising huh? You might have to actually DO something instead of expecting the guy to PERFECTLY do everything.

The more you fuck about the more you find out

So you cheated

I see your thought process and understand why you didn't think of it as cheating, but the issue is that you were having concerns about your relationship and rather than addressing those concerns with your partner you started looking around elsewhere on your own. You weren't acting as part of a team, like you would in a relationship with another person with whom you wanted to build mutual trust. You were acting on your own, your thought process was your own, the issues you were having in the relationship were your own. You weren't coming from a place of being really in a relationship and committed to giving it a real shot, you were coming from a place of trying to just sort it out on your own and testing out other options without even letting him know there was an issue to be addressed. That's what makes it cheating. You'd already disconnected yourself from him before you even went on the dates.

Thank you for the kind reply… I think I felt the relationship wasn’t solid enough to address concerns very directly… I really didn’t want to make him feel pressured to change for my sake… I thought he would just think I was asking too much and say it’s over… when I’d gently bring something up it didn’t really get much attention or a willingness for action… one reason I questioned how much he even liked me… but maybe because I wasn’t doing a good job of communicating the importance of the issues to him.

I don't if I'd call what you did cheating. But you both definitely suck at communication lol

🤣🤣🤣 This. 100%. Cracks me up every time I hear women say that nonsense. We're not mind-readers, so why believe that we are?

Well, take it as a lesson. If you want to give a relationship the best chance you can at succeeding, you have to be honest about how you're feeling and what your needs are even when it's hard and awkward and you're scared to rock the boat. I understand being worried that the relationship doesn't have a solid foundation yet and not wanting to scare him off, but a solid foundation is built on honesty and open communication. It doesn't just happen with time, you have to do some scary uncomfortable shit to make it happen. If you're looking around for someone better while he thinks you're exclusive, not only will that hurt him and his ability to feel secure with you, but it will also hurt your own sense of security and trust in him (or any partner, for that matter)--because if you're not really all the way in it, you're gonna be seeing his behavior through that lens too. You're gonna stay looking for signs from him that he isn't really in it either, because that's the mindset you know best. That can become a self-perpetuating cycle really quickly, with both of you sensing distance in the other and pulling away further out of fear.

You mentioned wanting a deeper connection with this person, and really as a general rule, deep connections come with deep honesty. They're a package deal. Sometimes the connection seems to come first and make the honesty easier, and I think that's sometimes what we subconsciously expect from the "right" partner, but I think most often the honesty has to come first. And that shit can be seriously scary--scarier for some folks than others, to be sure. But it can really be worth it, and frankly if you're not willing to be honest you're gonna shoot yourself in the foot every time.

Anyway, from one person who's deeply terrified of being vulnerable in relationships to a potential other, lol, I really wish you the best. Hope you learn a lot from this.

Thank you for sharing your wisdom… I hope I learn a lot from it as well. 💔

You don’t consider going on dates and actively looking for a new partner while in a committed monogamous relationship to be cheating?

Was it committed though? Sounds like that conversation was never had

Then have the conversation instead of going to cheat?

Erm….this dude was also looking through bumble.

He saw your updated profile.

Nothing is happening here except crappy shallow dating and keeping all options open without actually talking.

Talk to people the way you write. Excessively.