You are young and still learning the navigate the world. You didn't fuck up nor are you a fuck up. Give yourself grace love.

Don't ever feel embarrassed for having emotions and don't be afraid to seek help if you need it. As a teenager and even towards being a young adult I had a lot of suicidal thoughts from pressure/not being good enough/anxiety and I felt very alone in this world because I was also scared that people would look at me like I'm crazy.

I really had to learn to give myself grace and I still have to remind myself to this day as full grown adult . I hope that you can seek the help you need to learn how to cope with your anxiety and I hope that you can learn to always forgive yourself.

You got this and everything will be okay <3