It must be difficult because you still have to live with them. Is there someone else you could live with? A family member, friend, or someone you work with? You didn't make a mistake. Yes it's going to be awkward (to say the least), but it may be the best thing when you look back. Maybe this therapist can actually help you get out. Keep going, you are definitely worth it. Normal parents don't swear at their kids and tell them things like they don't have the balls to kill themselves. (I would've said, "Um, I have ovaries." But that's just smartass me.) Mental abuse for years is not ever acceptable. You are too nice & need to get tf out. Don't worry about them anymore. To Thyself be True.