>if it can get this bad why the fuck do you still do it?

Because it's not normally like this for a lot of people. It's kind of like drinking, if you drink in excess, you can blackout and have a terrible time.

I don't do mushrooms a lot or on the regular, but when I do it's small doses. If I get a shroom I never had before, I practice caution and take small amount so I can better understand how it will effect me. Never have I experienced a situation where I became so disoriented that I didn't know who I am, who the people around me were, and so on.

This isn't remotely close to normal and OP should stay away from shrooms.