I think you are good people who are suffering. You are indulging in small guilty pleasures because you are feeling helpless about the big picture. One place you may be able to get help is at your local library. Reference librarians can sometimes help you research ways to get the assistance you need. I think you are in a marginal financial state and that there are ways you can get some aid that will help you to turn your lives around. That might make you feel less anxious overall. there may even be some low cost therapy that could help with the anxiety. good luck to you!