>This all sounds super absurd and feels weird to write and I feel stupid for getting into such a situation,

This may be a little off-topic, but you might find it helpful to read up on how falling in love affects us at a neurological/biochemical level. Specifically, I've found Dr. Helen Fisher's work to be pretty interesting. She's got a bunch of stuff on the web, but here's a couple things to get you started:

• The Nature of Romantic Love (PDF, 6 pages) - One of her earlier articles on the subject. It's very dry and scholarly, but it's short and captures the essence of her work.
• Why People Fall In Love (YouTube) - A more recent and approachable presentation.

The tl;dr to all of this is that "falling in love" isn't just an emotion. It's a biochemical process that takes place in the most primitive levels of our brain. And it radically affects our ability to think clearly and reason. In short, love makes us crazy.

... and the effects of this - the hormones that flood our system when we fall in love - last for 1-3 years.

All of which is to say that your brain is probably playing tricks on you. It's causing you to fixate on the positive aspects of the relationship, while overlook the negative. But in 1-2 years, that effect is going to wear off (for both of you). So think carefully about what it is you want and how this does or doesn't meet your needs. Or, better still, think about what you wanted *prior* to this relationship - that's going to be where the real "truth" lies, and what's likely to matter most once the fog of new love lifts.

Good luck.