Yeah I wasn't really expecting to catch feelings for this girl. I honestly wish we could go back in time a little bit. I would much much rather still be a virgin and have her as a friend than be in the situation we are in now. I think the fuckup was the whole experience of sharing my feelings, then explaining I don't want to be a second choice, then apologizing. about all of it. I think it was just way too much too fast. I was in an extremely confused state.

Thanks for the advice. I honestly don't care if she wants to date me or not now, I would just like to have her in my life somehow. She made it better.