In writing that post, I was very distraught because I hurt someone I loved. I believe I exposed a deep fear that combatted my logic. Logically, I knew I mattered more to him than that. However on the illogical reactive side, My reaction was out of fear of his anger response, and hanging up on me. This isn't something he regularly does. It was another shock.

(Would also note that I'm not afraid because of him. He isn't scary and never intends to be scary, but I do fear the emotion anger in general).

Tl;Dr my brain wasn't being logical and I was typing out of emotions, ignoring obvious truths such as the healthiness of our relationship