I had a coworker who died recently and a lot of "well wishes" notes from upper management talked about how he was great with our sponsors and an efficient tester and I just thought... This is real to those people in the suits. The grind, the bank account, they really thought it mattered, that is real life to them. My coworker liked weird gadgets, dinosaurs, his children, not securing a deal with a manufacturing company. Even just typing it out makes me hurt.