Honey, I don't say this to be unkind, but I think you need mental health treatment more than you need a boyfriend-relationship right now. You've been through some heavy abuse and I also think you need an urgent doctor visit for the medical problem. You DO deserve good quality help!

If I were you I'd ask the boyfriend for space and meanwhile get in to see a doctor, get started with a therapist and maybe a psychiatric evaluation, and I don't know if you work or are in school, but maybe a little time off would do you good.

You absolutely do deserve to be treated well, to be understood, and to be free of pain.