Is your boyfriend the first person you realized you have been lashing out on or have there been other people? Do you lash out on friends? Family? Coworkers? Teachers/professors?

What do you mean by "lashing out"? Can you give examples please? When you lashing out, do you acknowledge it with them or do they have to bring it up? What do you do to apologize and own up? Have you tried anything to control your emotions and actions?