No good relationship will ever survive a fight like this. If you’re looking to find advice about how to fix this and move on while you stay together - you won’t find it. Put it this way, there are men you won’t feel the need to assault, and there will be men who won’t respond to being hit by cardboard with that kind of overkill. You want one of those.

I’m also suspicious because people always paint themselves better in these stories and you still don’t come off the best. Therapy is good for everyone but I emphasise its importance here.