Hi straight off the bat I sound like the biggest asshole I know but I really am stuck here

I was at an event for Halloween and decided to go to a after party that my brother invited me too It had a lot of people there some I knew some I didn’t and it was very fun from the bits I remember but then I had once drink that clearly sent me over the edge and next thing I know I woke up to my boyfriend saying I was grinding on some guy. He was not wrong because of course there’s a video that I myself posted of it. I haven’t watched it because I’m so ashamed It feels like my body and brain was hijacked I and am not finding it easy to process what happened because I just can’t believe I would have done that I love him more than anything I just am struggling believing that was me ( obviously it was there’s proof ) but I don’t think I was mentally there one bit and that’s terrifying to me

I do not lose that much memory of things when I go out either I’ve completely lost a good 3 or 4 hours of that night in my memory All I can go off is what people are saying happened My boyfriend doesn’t want to break up with me which is a huge relief and from what people have said I never kissed anyone or did anything considered cheating but obviously I get seeing ur girlfriend post a video of her grinding on some random guy isn’t ideal

Im too ashamed to leave my house Or talk to anyone at the moment im not sure what to do

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foolishkarma t1_iuigxgk wrote on October 31, 2022 at 4:07 PM

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Delete the video, Apologize/seek forgiveness, Accept you are too wild after a few drink and seek measures to discipline your drinking habits. Yes its gonna be embarrassing, yes its gonna take some humility, but that's what you have to do when you hurt people you care about.

KingAlastor t1_iuigzv9 wrote on October 31, 2022 at 4:08 PM

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Know this, alcohol never changes a person, only reveals what's hidden within. This is what's hidden within you. The second obvious answer of course is to watch your alcohol intake then but that's pointless to tell to an 18 year old.

dupattaluella t1_iuih2fq wrote on October 31, 2022 at 4:08 PM

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Take this as a learning experience. Don't put yourself in situations like these in the future. Not only did you black out, but you were grinding on another man.

Just imagine if that other man didn't realize how drunk you were and thought you were making a move. You could have slept with him without being aware at the time. This is why people need to be aware of their drinking limit and not place themselves in compromising situations, especially when drugs and alcohol are involved.

iNeedPhotos t1_iuj2xel wrote on October 31, 2022 at 6:33 PM

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Replying to KingAlastor (#388,774)

OOP, this first part is wild bullshit. Second part is good advice.

KingAlastor t1_iuj4d50 wrote on October 31, 2022 at 6:42 PM

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Replying to iNeedPhotos (#395,862)

By "wild bullshit" you mean absolutely true? Seems you're in denial much. Having issues with alcoholism? You know the first step to getting better is to admit you have a problem.

iNeedPhotos t1_iujbpvk wrote on October 31, 2022 at 7:32 PM

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Replying to KingAlastor (#396,375)

You seem to have a problem jumping to conclusions. I did enjoy a gin and limeade a couple days ago. It's like a gin rickey but miles better. Maybe I shouldn't ruminate so much on this.

An 18 year old who dances on some dude while blasted, even if they're in a relationship, isn't revealing some inner truth. It's just a young person unfamiliar with drinking who is feeling the effects of a good time with friends and loses their head for a second. It doesn't mean they're thinking of cheating on their boyfriend every day.

Now that I think about it - gin also goes well with lemonade, too. You want a gin that's not expensive - you're mixing it, not sipping. Even if you're not mixing who wants to pay that premium! God - that sounds so good. I can't stop thinking about it.

I've never cheated but I imagine that the majority of cheating happens while drunk. I would say this person would have a relationship and drinking problem if this happens again. And I do think she should feel bad about sending a video out about it but, all things considered, nothing really happened. Also, I get worried about kids her age for their physical safety but she's okay.

Alrighty then. Hold on, I'd be rude to not give you the lemonade recipe - https://youtu.be/_YYF9vBLzGU. It goes great with liquors of any price range. Anyway, gotta run. It's 5:32 somewhere.