You need a plan. The thing that will make you feel better is having a plan to act on. To do that you need to find a lawyer or counselor.

You said you liked photography? Offer to do headshots for people for a couple of hundred bucks. I know someone who does this for LinkedIn profiles and makes a killing. She is in NY and now has a booming business. Or photograph something else. You can find dozens of online communities on how to get started and free classes on photo editing.

Once you start taking some kind of action you will feel less lost. Make yourself do something for 30 minutes each day. No excuses.