It sounds to me from your comments that there's a lot of other elements in your marriage that you'll find are actually not healthy for you once you start unpacking things in therapy.

Just because something was the best choice for you to escape one abusive situation as a teenager, it doesn't mean that it will always be the best life you can lead. In fact, it makes you more vulnerable to controlling behaviour and emotional abuse from your partner.

You deserve so much more, and I really hope that therapy can help you to believe that and build a better life for yourself.

Re: your friends all loving him, I'd like to think that they might pleasantly surprise you, but if it feels unsafe then trust your instincts.