Truthfully, I’m having trouble staying smiley for my family. We went to visit my ailing grandma (87) to bring her food, and it just kinda dawned on me that she’s likely going to die soon. Seeing her in such condition really hurt my heart. My parents (62 and 60) are similarly reaching retirement age and I’m gonna be 30 in about a year and a half. The inexorable passage of time sort of put a damper on my holiday. I don’t need existential crises on Christmas. Even my mom noticed I was a bit sad today.

On the upside, I made my first ever tiramisu for Christmas Eve dessert and my family loved it.