cherrybombsnpopcorn t1_jbxilin wrote on March 12, 2023 at 2:19 PM

Reply to comment by europahasicenotmice in The philosophy of Beccaria is relevant to understand the current mental health crisis. The idealistic abstractions of the legal system are akin to the ones used in psychiatric discourse. by carrero33

I’m on cymbalta and vyvanse now, and I’m doing pretty well. I found an amazing doctor on circle medical. Getting actual therapy is my next step. I’m pretty sure i have cptsd from my mom too.

Congrats on getting out. It takes a lot to take care of yourself and advocate for yourself the way you are.

europahasicenotmice t1_jbxzce3 wrote on March 12, 2023 at 4:22 PM

It's funny, PTSD is the one diagnosis that every mental health professional I've seen has agreed on, and it's the one that I still feel like an imposter when I say it. Some of my coworkers are veterans and the shit they've been through...it's really hard to see myself in the same category.

But from the time I was born til the time I left home, I got up every day not knowing if I would be safe. I didn't know what stability felt like til I made it for myself as an adult. And I'm still training myself to accept that I deserve it, that I'm allowed to set boundaries with people who disrupt it, and that it's perfectly OK to not make everyone around me happy. If you think your childhood was traumatic, then it probably was. Part of the abuse is being conditioned to believe that it's not abuse.

I didn't expect this, but the antidepressants cleared my head in a way that made the things I was learning in therapy click. Like I understood them rationally beforehand, but I had a really hard time practicing them or feeling them. Now I'm able to catch things in the moment, rather than hours or days later.

I'm glad you're doing well!