It's not just an emotional state, it's my quality of life. I'm all alone out here and they're my only companionship. I have bad depression and PTSD (already in therapy) and I would get worse if I "failed" in my life and had to lose them. I lost them once and was blessed enough to get them back after a year.

I'm already cutting back where I can. I'm trying to see if anyone else has any ideas I haven't thought of. Ways to make my money go farther, etc. Ways to get support for medical bills or something. I'm looking to move somewhere cheaper, or somewhere that my profession pays more in relation to the cost of living, but I don't know what my other options are, if anything.