I spent a bunch of money on homebrewing equipment only to lose my taste for beer in general a few months later. I know myself now. I like to pick up new hobbies just to see if I can do them, once I can confidently do the hobby I lose interest almost entirely. My understanding is that I like growing as an individual and am risk averse, I need to channel these qualities into something greater. In my specific case that's real-estate investing and finance. I wish you the best on your journey. Don't hate yourself for wanting to explore and try new things, cut your losses and try another thing to that will help you grow and further your personal and professional goals.