I too am 32 years old and experienced the same thing on a regular basis. Once I realized years ago that what I was seeing in my dreams was a vision of the future or more precisely in my case a more than likely possible future, I started paying more attention to them. I agree that attempting to change the outcome usually results in far worse things happening. And I think it may be something to do with people like us when you refer to the feeling of unhappiness. I don’t even get excited about things anymore and it drives my wife absolutely crazy. Probably because although there’s this one exciting thing coming up I can list off a bunch of other less than exciting things that are coming. And to anyone else reading this who is like us don’t waste your time trying to end your own life. Something about this also makes us, I guess I would say immune to ending our own lives in away. It’s like we don’t have that option. Enjoy the time you do have with the man who will murder you and thank you for being brave enough to post this knowing that many people will just call you insane because they don’t understand and will never be able to.