It’s the most natural thing in the world, and at ANY AGE- to crave the love and protection of your mother. So many are Susan Smiths and Casey Anthonys though… and I am willing to bet you’ve forgiven past actions of hers that were far from maternal love- because that’s what we do. Don’t beat yourself up just realize she’s dangerous and unworthy of being part of your life. ❤️ and strength to you, from someone who has survived attempts on my life.