One thing I learned after my first son was the difficulty in understanding hurting and or killing children. Before him I didn't have reference to the love a human could feel from their own child doing something as simple as laughing, crying or how they light up when they see you after being away. Those moments are what now make me understand why no parent should outlive their child. Whatever depravity drives a parent to harm their own child is undoubtedly some deep dark terrifying shit. The poor little guy definitely didn't and couldn't have done anything to deserve his fate.