Ugh. That poor baby that thought this was a solution. And their poor parents. College life can be fun. But so stressful, especially if your emotional toolbox doesn't have enough in it. Campuses are addressing mental health pretty decently in this area but there is always room for improvement. My niece is a junior this year. During her freshman year which was 2020, her dorm pod mate killed himself after all the isolation, and feeling like he'd exposed his dorm pod mates to COVID. Suicide is a permanent solution to what might be a temporary problem. Please seek help, even if its talking to someone. Please call 988 if you are feeling like you need to hurt yourself, or go to the ER.