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beerasap t1_j78qjz7 wrote

Reply to comment by StevenIndieSparkle in Amy Winehouse winning her first Grammy in 2008 by Rainsdrop

Why did she feel empty at this moment? What is the name of the documentary?

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thesaltwatersolution t1_j7aq0x6 wrote

I think the quote to attribute is: “It’s boring without drugs.”

Spend enough time with addicts and you quickly realize that life as it is won’t do. It’s too boring. When your brain is addicted to the very highs you can’t tolerate the middle for very long.

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ToxicPolarBear t1_j7bbczg wrote

That and drugs literally change the physical chemistry of your brain such that the highs obtained without them are much lower. You stop being able to feel anything except the craving for more drugs.

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GOOD_BONE_N_CALCIUM t1_j7bez4r wrote

Can confirm. Used to do a bunch of acid and other dumb shit.

The onky things that really get me going nkw is going fast on motorcycles and diving waaayyy too deep into work.

Im slowly working my way back to normality.

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Padhome t1_j7c2gb5 wrote

It happens, it can take years but your brain eventually resets back to a certain norm. My friend's brother was a heroin addict for years, thought he would never be happy again until 3 years later when he got a donut over at Dunkin' and said it was the first normal happy feeling he'd had in years. Simple pleasures will be there, you just have to wait for them.

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dolo_ran6er t1_j7d7ap9 wrote

Can also confirm. Spent a lot of my 20s hooked on opiates. Nothing else did it for me. I was a functional user...but i got pretty deep and did some things i thought id never do. Almost died several times, family was broken...couldn't figure my shit out. I'm thankful those days are behind me, but oddly I don't know if I'd change a thing. It's given my current life a lot of perspective. Learned a lot of hard lessons...but its made me a more appreciative person in the long run. 2016 was my last bender. Now I'm engaged, I'm an uncle, and I have a solid career. There was a time I doubted I'd make it to 30....im glad I did.

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expensivebutbroke t1_j7ekz61 wrote

Hey man, I know you aren’t, but you sound a lot like my brother-in-law, and he’s a totally awesome dude. Here’s a stranger rooting for you ❤️

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WeAreReaganYouth t1_j7d6no6 wrote

Well said. Unless you've been there it's hard to really imagine how joyless life can been when you're stuck in that loop. I remember a time where I don't think I smiled or laughed for about a year.

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vonvoltage t1_j7ca6dy wrote

I didn't start to feel really normal until about a month without alcohol and two months before I felt like my endorphins and gaba receptors among all the other things in my brain were getting used to it.

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360walkaway t1_j7bqfxi wrote

I've only done weed at the most (maybe only a dozen times total ever) and I'm like this. Something major happens and I'm like "ok whatever." Wtf is wrong with my head

I ask an honest question and get downvoted, what is wrong with people

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Shadowleg t1_j7bqy20 wrote

thats probably more to do with internet usage than weed. Its been 15 years since this clip

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360walkaway t1_j7br6vl wrote

What do you mean

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Onkel_B t1_j7buzr6 wrote

How do you define "something major"? Is it a positive or negative event? Does it effect you directly, or is it globally bad shit?

One of my cats died a few months ago and i was wrecked. I can watch /r/combatfootage all day and not give a fuck about actual people dying.

There is nothing wrong with you. Desenzitaition is a thing.

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minimorning t1_j7bxgbf wrote

Weed comes in handy as a de stress tool for me I actually don’t use it often enough

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JRsFancy t1_j7bt69r wrote

Nothing is wrong. Sounds like you just grew up some. I never do drugs, but cannot for the life of me why anyone gets anything out of awards shows on television. Emmy's, Tony's, Grammy's, Oscar's....just a glorified circle jerk which I'm not a part of.

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Scagh t1_j7acwoh wrote

At the state of drug addiction she was at this period, the only thing she could think of was her next dose.

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JusticeUmmmmm t1_j7a7lcw wrote

Depression probably

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zyygh t1_j7aojj9 wrote

I don't have depression (not that I know of, at least) but I do have some pretty depressed episodes sometimes.

In those moments I try to cheer myself up by looking at all the good things I have, and at the things I love. On a particularly bad day, it all just does nothing to me. As if I wouldn't feel a single thing if it all disappeared right then and there.

So yeah, I can very clearly imagine depression making a person feel empty during such a moment where they know they're supposed to feel happy.

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concatenated_string t1_j7b3kur wrote

There has been nothing so life-altering and perception-bending to me than going through severe anhedonia when psychotically depressed.

I could finally (and truly) understand why so many severely depressed people take their own life.

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The_Lonely_lurker t1_j7bm3zc wrote

How did you get through the anhedonia?

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concatenated_string t1_j7btoqq wrote

SSRI’s, cognitive behavioral therapy, learning how to do mindfulness meditation and a lot of time and working on my mental health. Took about ~2 years to recover. I will be in therapy for the rest of my life. I still struggle sometimes but I have the tools and support I need to reorient and recover when I start falling.

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The_Lonely_lurker t1_j7bvt6q wrote

Interesting to see SSRIs on the list. I know someone struggling with this and they saw it get worse when their SSRIs were increased. Glad to hear you're in a much better spot

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concatenated_string t1_j7bx9ja wrote

I was on SSRI’s to get through the major episode, about 1.5 years to stabilize and then I went off them in order to feel “normal” again.

Oddly enough, SSRI’s would make me rage the fuck out every now and again. Never in my life have I experienced rage the way that I did on SSRI’s.

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The_Lonely_lurker t1_j7byoj1 wrote

Interesting. The person I know has been on SSRIs for years and years (unmonitored as they stopped seeing psychiatrist but the prescription just kept getting renewed without checking in). They just recently had a major episode so they upped it but the anhedonia they have been feeling for years is getting worse. The good thing is therapy/psychiatrist is now a weekly thing. So hopefully as with you the SSRIs can move them through this episode but they can be adjusted downward in time to help with the lack of emotions

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Saroan7 t1_j7ahe5p wrote

Probably huge withdrawal depression. Couldn't cope without drugs. She has some fantastic works but couldn't understand the larger picture.

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SpeshellED t1_j7br5ao wrote

Wishing she was as good as all time greatest Grammy winner Beyonce ! /s NOT.

I can not name one thing Beyonce has done. Love Amy and Dolores . Wish they were still here.

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