It used to be like that for me, and sometimes it still is. I first started practicing meditation about 30 years ago and did it for a few months. Maybe 5 years ago I added it back and even if it’s 5 minutes a day, I do it. Once a week or so, I’m able to get a nice long one in.

I do it at the same time of the morning every day. Sometimes my mind races, sometimes I’m calm. Sometimes answers come to me, sometimes I am in a dreamlike daze. Sometimes i feel a so amazing, sometimes I’m very frustrated and worn out.

Our brains are complicated things that have to process a lot more every day. There are a lot of stressors out there. But keep going. That’s all part of it. Over months and years, you will gain more calm and less inner anxiety. Spending that time with yourself will let you know what is important to you and what isn’t.

I hope you give it another shot, It’s worth it.