No. I live in a vehicle. Employment has never been a problem. I don't have any substance issues. Ive never been convicted of anything, ive technically been arrested a few times, is part of the life, in the wrong place a lot of the time but my point is no criminal history either. I had a medical issue cost me my job and i had no safety net of any kind. There was a window where i couldve made good use of assistance but that window is closed. I am trying to be a normal housed person as I now have a niece and I have an opportunity to be a good uncle. Basically, a goal. I do not wish to impose my situation on my brother, he has tried to help and i dont want my nieces early memories of me to be me crying in their guest room. Its been many years since ive slept inside anywhere. It is difficult to explain, and i realize it is irrational and safer than my current situation. But i cant relax, i end up finding myself in a defensive stance, covering my face, random adrenaline, terrified of nothing, its quite sad. I am struggling to adjust, and finding a month to month rental situation every other year only to continue sleeping in a vehicle and hanging outside all the time is both financially draining and a bit heartbreaking. I believe I need therapy but have been failed by the low access medical system as my efforts have been counterproductive to say the least. It's been too long, the man I was is dead and the man I have become is still strange to me.