I’d be remised if I didn’t urge you to find a different avenue of dealing with your loss (i.e., a therapist, grief counselor, or group meetings), but different strokes for different folks I suppose. Seriously though, strongly consider seeking out a different option with a trained professional or a personal friend/family member who knows what you are going through. As for your reply, I can’t tell if you’re being sarcastic, so I’ll err on the side of caution and just say everyone replying on this post is likely trying to help you and help avoid being taken for a ride by a potential con artist. No need to be curt.