Don't compare yourself to others, comparison is the thief of joy. Enjoy what you enjoy, and don't be so hard on yourself for it.

As far as ideas for music, I think it's important to consider what you're looking for, and why. If you want to know what to look for, you'll find it pretty quickly if you think about the answers you get to those questions. Without details, it's hard to offer much direction without just hoping the ideas apply to what you're looking for.