You can be like this. It is healthy and necessary for you to grieve the loss of your loved one. And it will help to have your family there to help pick you back up.

My aunt got a statue that looks like her late dog. So that no matter what, her girl is there watching her come every day.

I'm going to get my dogs paws tattooed up my spine with their gotcha/birthdays with it. Grieve your pal, like you would any other person.

I'm sorry for your loss and I hope you can find some solace in knowing that you were their whole world.