Do you find any relief in confronting death? So many people, your age and younger, look at their situation, and the general direction of the world, only to see a great deal of hardship with little prospects and no mechanism to improve things for themselves. I don’t know what life you live now, or what you will be leaving behind, but it sounds like you have a fixed amount of time. You can reasonably predict every consequence for you actions going forward; to what extent do you feel like you are not responsible for yourself anymore since your future has been decided for you?

Edit: also, do you anticipate and afterlife? What existential philosophy did you hold before your diagnosis? Has it changed in light of everything? Has it served you well?