NOT humiliating! You're a novice but that's exciting and not anything to be embarrassed about. So first, let me congratulate you for being able to verbalize that you are artistic. That's a big first step.

Second, I think you could begin thinking about what your goals are. Do you want to learn an instrument? Do you want to learn to read or write music? (For me, it's very necessary but I know a lot of incredible musicians who don't use notation.) Do you want to write music using technology, i.e., via computer(s)? It's okay if you only have vague answers at this point, but starting to define your desires even in general terms can help you.

Then, there are some things you can do somewhat alone, just to get started, such as take online courses, and there are lots of places to do that. Just start with a very general search tailored to your goals, and DON'T spend a lot of money at this early point. Maybe even some method books can help. (It just depends on what your goals are so my counsel is admittedly a big vague here as I don't know you.)

At some point, you will likely want a community. These can include teachers found through Craig's List or in local music schools with "amateur music" courses (I personally don't like the word "amateur" in this context), or other peers with similar goals. Once you start actually interacting with other people in your preferred musical styles, it will be much, much easier to find information about how to keep developing your craft.

All this to say -- It's a journey, and you know what they say about journeys beginning with a step. Just... step. :)